It is a special day today. I got to hold you for the very first time! It was only for about a minute and I didn't get to snuggle you close, but they actually put you in my arms. You are 3 days away from being 2 months old and this is a moment I have been waiting for a long time. It's hard to feel like a mom right now. I don't get to do any of the things that a new mom should be doing. I don't get to comfort you, be with you, hold you, feed you or even hear you cry. The only thing I can do for you is pump my breast milk and that is what I will do for you. I hope you can at least feel my love when I am here. I hope you know my voice and my touch. I dream of the day you will be home every day. I know you will get better Shelby. You are my miracle.
You are 2lbs 9 oz today. The Dr's hope that you will be off the ventilator by your due date. I wish it could be sooner! Your lungs are so damaged though. They are deciding on whether or not to do another surgery and remove the dead vein in your arm. I hope not. You are a beautiful baby and you know what you want. You had your eyes open for a while today. You now eat 17cc of breast milk every 3 hours. I love you Shelby girl.
No comments:
Post a Comment